Holy shit! Holy Shit! Holy Shit!!!!!

You know what it is by now im sure....but wtf. I dont even want to get into the rant as i cant say anything that hasnt been said already. Gl to us all and if i start playing live, or this bs gets resolved then ill start blogging again

until then

:salute:

whoda thunk it?

As posted before, March has been a pretty big downer....well shit! As i write that its happened again. I was having a ton of trouble with my HEM and so i did a whole bunch of garbage and started over just using march's hh's and thought i had resolved the problem and now.....its messing up again. I have uninstalled and reinstalled it a couple times and still....bah....annnnnnnnnnnd it worked again, so i guess we will see. Either way here is the March graph

:puke: wtf most of the downswing was at 25nl too so that makes it doubley bad. Buttttt it looks like i have righted the ship. I am like 8 buy ins below ev for the month so that doesnt help, and im getting coolered to death with kings into aces a few times, top two into bottom set a few times, and a few suckouts....but i dont think i was playing optimally either. Still have stacked some bonus money and rakeback and im up about 400 on the month which i cant really bring myself to complain about, but is def below my monthly goal.

So yeah in other who thunk it news, i learned that charmane star hasnt had any plastic surgery.....

.....weird huh?

Adios

The Sht

Twice in a day?

What can i say? Failing motivates more than succeeding does and lately all ive done at the tables is fail. I obviously put in another session and once again another 2 buy ins gone as i just got totally shit on. So i thought ok i can either take a break and come back refreshed and ready to go OR i can continue to embrace the degenerate i am and just switch games.

If you remember at the start of this stake i was playing stt's and ran hot while getting some coaching but very obviously had leaks but variance smiled on me and i had a sick roi in the 6.50's. Then i went on a bit of a downswing and took a break to play cash until i could talk with my coach.....

Except i hit the ground running in cash and just destroyed the cash games. Ive been playing and beating the games pretty good since then but now im on maybe a 10buy in downswing and am ready to switch back to some stt's. I talked to the my staker/sng coach and will be reviewing what i was doing wrong and giving stt's another run.

Im not saying that I'm done with cash or that im playing bad or anything, i just think it was a bit of a downswing and a new game and challenge will be good for me. So yeah it looks like ill take tomorrow off, talk about stt's with  barone and go crush those for awhile.

BLOG ENTRY SAVER

Burrrr its getting cold in here

As I'm finishing up my first winter in Wisconsin and things are starting to warm up outside, i see my poker graph becoming ice cold. Coolers, run bad, u name it March has not been kind. Due to some run good (or not run bad) the one day i played 50nl i am up money on the month, but am down bb's....so i guess thank god for good timing and bonuses. 

First 9k hands, not too shabby....last 7k, i want to die. I mean ffs this 25nl!!!! I should be absolutely crushing this. My BB/100 has been cut in half during this downswing and thats depressing, but i still am over 2BB/100.....and really for once i actually have it all in perspective and am not too tilty/mad at myself/life but i felt like i hadnt written a blog for awhile so yeah.

Since the stake begun the graph has been pretty sexy really and this downswing only looks so bad and affects my winrate so much because of my lack of volume

Played some mtts for the first time this stake.....that was more death as i busted with AA vs AK all in pre in one, and JJ vs A9 all in pre in another.

Ok ok /rant and ill probably even put in another session today

ive hidden my password and screenname in this post....so if it goes like it has been at the tables then whoever deciphers it first gets a free bankroll.....

GL

Reset

So after a little 4 buy in downswing at 50nl, i talked it over with my backer and we both said ok lets pull the profits off the table and start over. I got to pay off a debt i wanted to take care of he got to basically freeroll this stake as we each got about $850.

I've mostly moved back down to 25nl but took a little shot at 50nl that worked out. Since the reset ive put in about 10k hands (in 2 weeks so im really sucking with volume) but the stake is back up about 350 or 400, i cant remember where i ended today.

Per the norm im debating with myself what the best course of action is. I dont mind playing staked like i thought i would. I mean overall the stake has gone pretty smooth with very few setbacks. But i would like to get out playing on my own again. Its great that when i do it will be a total freeroll for me as i started off with 0 deposited of my own money. It is important to me that i dont go broke because i want the rest of my poker days to be a freeroll and to never redeposit again. To do this i will need to do 2 main things; 1) be a bankroll nit. I dont think i need to nit it up to the point i did when i was playing exclusively for my income but close. Id say maintaining 20+ buy ins for my level and not moving up until i have 40 for the next level is pretty conservative. 2) not be scared to move back down if my shots at higher levels dont go well.

So with that said im not sure what i want my breaking off the stake goal to be. Ive thought about 500 being the point. Thats 20 buy ins and buy that point ill have won at 25nl enough to know the risk associated with it. I think i can beat 25nl at a rate that makes the standard deviation well within the 20 buy in bankroll. But i know i wont move down to 10nl so id really prefer a 1k roll. Most likely if things go par for the course i will detach at the end of april and whatever i have over 500 will be good enough. If im still below 500, then obviously ill continue the stake if thats cool with the backer obviously.

All said 25nl is really a pretty easy level to beat and while im playing im thinking things like "meh id be cool beating this for 5-7k/year" but obviously once im on my own and stacking money ill be wanting to move up i mean afterall ive done pretty well at 50nl too. So then i think the same thing about 50nl "hey a little more variance but i can beat it at a good rate and just stick to 50nl which should be good for 7 - 10k / year." Except i know better. We are all gamblers, we all want to push our edge to the limit and i will too, after 50 ill have the same thought process for 100nl and after that 200nl....it wont stop until i dont have an edge in the games.

For now though thats all pretty far off and i have to stay focused on getting to another 1k+ in profit. And who knows maybe ill just up the stake.

You know what i was going to write about mtt's for a minute but f it, i just lost all motivation so you dont even get a thread saving asian pic

Bahahahhahahahahhahah

Ahhhhhsht

Its like HEM or PT3.....but different

Playing on a Mac can be very frustrating if you want to take your game to the highest level. There just isn't a lot poker software out there that are compatible and of great quality for Mac users. On the flip side, most pc owners have an almost unlimited amount of options for poker software and some are very strong. That means people are getting better and you aren't. 

Poker Copilot is specifically designed for Macs and is pretty solid. I've used the trial now for 20 days and there is a lot to like. I also feel my game has improved in these 20 days quite drastically. 

When you start the software it will immediately search your hard drive for any hand histories and load them into the database. After that when you fire up whatever site you play your heads up display (hud) will pop up. In the 20 or so days that I have used PokerCo the hud has worked flawlessly and although I might disagree with how some of the stats are calculated it works really well. I really wish you could leave notes on players inside the hud but I think the creator has already mentioned that he's working on this function. 

After a session you can use Poker Copilot to review your hands, especially any that at the time you were really unsure of how to handle. It has the ability to spot weaknesses and also show your strengths. Doing session reviews is really what has taken my game to a different level. Knowing what hands I'm losing most of my money on or even what position has been a tremendous help. There are also these poker leak finders that PokerCo has that can help. There is a detector that runs your preflop aggression, positional awareness, blind stealing, and your ability to play pocket pairs. I haven't spent a lot of time using these because I don't have a realistic about of hands to really test it accurately but this seems like a really cool feature. 

Lastly, I had a couple of minor issues trying to figuure out certain aspects of the functions and had to email the creator Steve. He responded within 12 hours and was extremely helpful and knowledgeable both times. 

If you play poker on a Mac Poker Copilot is a must buy. For only 69.99 you'd be foolish not to take advantage of the hud and software for session reviews. 

An old friend

Ever since ive started this stake its been for the most part pretty variance free. I had a downswing when i played like a horses ass but havent been coolered etc. I have been keeping my sessions short and just booking win after win really. But the more i win, the more volume ive been putting in....the more volume you put in, the more swings you are going to experience. Its just the standard deviation of the game. Well today, variance caught up with me. It looked something like this:

It doesnt take much imagination to figure out who represents me in this picture. I did get a bit of a reach around though as i had this one fish at one table just keep paying me off and paying me off and going out of his way to play pots vs me so it kind of cushioned the blow of AA < 10 10  in a 3bet pot, and KK into AA 3x within 500 hands. I pretty much broke even over the rest of my hands and am down an insta 4 buy ins.

And like that, even after beating 25nl for 4BB/100 over 35k'ish hands and murdering 50nl the last 2 weeks or so over about 10k hands, im doubting myself. And this is an example of the ever present fragile psyche of a poker player. Given my current situation i dont really know which way to go with this. Im still up proly 11 or 12 buy ins profit and another $100 bonus over the last two weeks at 50nl. But im not sure if playing on staked money and having to cash out/reset at the end of this month if i really want to go through these psychologically damaging swings.

This is where HEM can be so valuable a tool, it can just kinda reassure me that im not spewing, that it was just a variance, that my winrate was insane and is coming back down to earth. But after that dirty asian whore of a hacker put that virus on my laptop im still waiting for the reboot disc in the mail. So maybe ill move back down until HEM is up and running and doing its full time job of stroking my poker ego and calming my nerves.  Or maybe ill wake up refreshed tomorrow and ready to get back in the ring. But I guess for now ill just settle for this vent

and to thank you for listening