I never intended to get sucked into this game. I actually used to make fun of a few buddies of mine in the army who played poker. I would say "blackjack and sportsbetting is my game" and then get drunk and make fun of these dudes playing a game of luck. Then one night after a really heavy night of drinking i decided i wanted to take on a truck in a fight. I consider myself moderately tough and im not ashamed to say the truck won....BIG TIME.
It won so good that I was put on bed rest for 30days. So bored out of my mind i had a buddy of mine refer me to Bodog so that i could sportsbet/play blackjack. After burning through a good amount of money sportsbetting i went on tilt and decided to play some sngs. I must of been running like god cuz i made some money at them. I had 200 or so on bodog but a good job and didnt mind depositing so i was playing $10s and $20s stts. One day i was playing a stt and this reg told me i should try these mtt's....they are like stts but a bunch of players.
I was hooked. Beating 9 guys, great.....beating 300-400 WOW. And the paydays were so huge compared to the buy in. Mtt's where ya been all my life. After going back and forth in mtts and stts and playing some 5c 10c NL, i was proly losing 200-400 a month for my final 4 months in the army. As i was getting out a friend of mine got me a job in a vegas hotel that paid rather well, so i decided to move there for that. I continued playing and a friend of mine who also played started showing me some books to read. I consumed myself in poker and was suddenly not depositing as frequently.
Still with no clue of br management i played and would have to redeposit sometimes, but since i never got into clubs and stuff i looked it at as going out expenses. A big step for me was when i joined cardplayer.com forums and started reading there strat threads. There were a couple good players who i really understood and my game made a couple leaps.
I was finally a pretty consistent winner. The last time i was still in the negative with poker invested money is still very clear as it was a big moment and happened just before i learned what im comfortable with as my br style. I had 50 or less dollars in my bodog acct and played a 11 dollar mtt, i obv shipped it for 1500. The next night i played the same mtt and treated myself to a 44 buy in. I shipped both for another 9k total.
Still with no clue of br management i played and would have to redeposit sometimes, but since i never got into clubs and stuff i looked it at as going out expenses. A big step for me was when i joined cardplayer.com forums and started reading there strat threads. There were a couple good players who i really understood and my game made a couple leaps.
I was finally a pretty consistent winner. The last time i was still in the negative with poker invested money is still very clear as it was a big moment and happened just before i learned what im comfortable with as my br style. I had 50 or less dollars in my bodog acct and played a 11 dollar mtt, i obv shipped it for 1500. The next night i played the same mtt and treated myself to a 44 buy in. I shipped both for another 9k total.
I thought i was destined for poker glory. I started playing live 1/2nl and was playing 100nl online as well as mtts. I was still spewing online at cash but was doing well in mtts and beating live.
Ill speed this up.....so i had some swings sure but never redeposited and i started crushing live 2/5nl for about a year. I got engaged and then that went to shit. So making more at 2/5 than i was at my job and having just broke up with my fiance i said F it and quit my job to play 2/5 fulltime. This was more of a grind than i thought it would be, but my first month i cleared about 17k so it was worth it. What wasnt worth it is over the next few months i was only making 3-4k.
I went on one bad downswing and decided to take a week off. I remembered i had 300 on full tilt (ahhhhhsht is not my name on there, its a complicated deal and lets just say im done with ftp) So i fired up 3, 100nl tables and b4 i knew it i had just over 1k. I thought "meh thats enough for a 50nl roll so lets just grind that for the week" I made about 1k that week and was up to 2k. I had rediscovered my love for the volume u can put online compared to live. So i decided to give it a go. I went back and forth from 50nl and 100nl and put most of my live bankroll in the bank for bills, while i grinded up my online money.
I kept getting my face beat at 100nl until i took a breath, swallowed my pride and addressed some leaks i had. I started beating 100nl and at the same time shipped a mtt for 8500. This was in november. Since then ive grinded 100nl taking money off for expenses, got my shit kicked in after running horrible at 200nl and now have moved over to stars where im starting with about 10k at 100nl.
Obv i left out a lot of details, but this is already tldr.
Tbh if i had it all to do again i would of kept working, I make a bit more than i did, but the stresses and lack of security are just to much for a moderate winner like myself. But thats the older wiser me talking. I dont regret going this path because it has really taught me a lot about myself, and when im old i wont say "i think i could of made millions if i had pursued poker fulltime"....i know i couldnt/didnt and honestly im ok with it. Now its time to finish up my degree, get a secure job, and play a game that im pretty good at with no pressure and strictly for fun/a lil extra income.
Ill speed this up.....so i had some swings sure but never redeposited and i started crushing live 2/5nl for about a year. I got engaged and then that went to shit. So making more at 2/5 than i was at my job and having just broke up with my fiance i said F it and quit my job to play 2/5 fulltime. This was more of a grind than i thought it would be, but my first month i cleared about 17k so it was worth it. What wasnt worth it is over the next few months i was only making 3-4k.
I went on one bad downswing and decided to take a week off. I remembered i had 300 on full tilt (ahhhhhsht is not my name on there, its a complicated deal and lets just say im done with ftp) So i fired up 3, 100nl tables and b4 i knew it i had just over 1k. I thought "meh thats enough for a 50nl roll so lets just grind that for the week" I made about 1k that week and was up to 2k. I had rediscovered my love for the volume u can put online compared to live. So i decided to give it a go. I went back and forth from 50nl and 100nl and put most of my live bankroll in the bank for bills, while i grinded up my online money.
I kept getting my face beat at 100nl until i took a breath, swallowed my pride and addressed some leaks i had. I started beating 100nl and at the same time shipped a mtt for 8500. This was in november. Since then ive grinded 100nl taking money off for expenses, got my shit kicked in after running horrible at 200nl and now have moved over to stars where im starting with about 10k at 100nl.
Obv i left out a lot of details, but this is already tldr.
Tbh if i had it all to do again i would of kept working, I make a bit more than i did, but the stresses and lack of security are just to much for a moderate winner like myself. But thats the older wiser me talking. I dont regret going this path because it has really taught me a lot about myself, and when im old i wont say "i think i could of made millions if i had pursued poker fulltime"....i know i couldnt/didnt and honestly im ok with it. Now its time to finish up my degree, get a secure job, and play a game that im pretty good at with no pressure and strictly for fun/a lil extra income.
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